Hello there. I am still pregnant, can you believe it? I am not overdue per se but this is beginning to feel tedious. These nine months have been the longest! I shared my wonderful pregnancy discomforts Pregnancy Woes Just coming from my check-up and it looks like Princess has turned, head down and ready to come out. Bags are packed and ready. I have been practicing my breathing exercises and I have watched enough birth videos to know that even now, I AM NOT READY. Is anyone ever ready?
This pregnancy is taking its toll on me but the thought of a baby tearing me apart as it comes out is haunting. Birth is a beautiful thing, I can not say much for my pretty orchid afterward. It is all worth it when Princess is here but I am scared guys. I am really really sounding bipolar right now, but you get me? So, I would like a word that signifies the painful-looking forward to an undesirable but awesome inevitability. This isn’t a feeling of fear, just discomfort at knowing that what’s to come will be arduous but beautiful. Omg, I think I have a headache. Words like foreboding, trepidation, apprehension, consternation unease could work but they carry more negative anticipation than painful anticipation. I want to cry.
Waterbirth would be awesome in this heat. (Mental note: Ice chips during labor.) Do they even do those in this third world country of mine? I doubt it, that is usually for home birth which is not allowed in this country. I am tired of being asked if the baby has arrived! No, she is still enjoying the aquatic pleasures of my uterus. While I am enjoying my last days with a lot of rest and the kicks of this one. I am telling you, this one is going to be a soccer player.
So just you know, three toilet trips were made during this blog. My life basically. Now let me go back to my nap.