Hello there. I am still pregnant, can you believe it? I am not over due per se but this is beginning to feel tedious. These nine months have been the longest! I shared my wonderful pregnancy discomforts Pregnancy Woes Just coming from my check up and it looks like Princess has turned, head down and ready to come out. Bags are packed and ready. I have been practising my breathing exercises and I have watched enough birth videos to know that even now, I AM NOT READY. Is anyone ever ready?
This pregnancy is taking its toll on me but the thought of a baby tearing me apart as it comes out is haunting. Birth is a beautiful thing, can not say much for my pretty orchid afterwards. Its all worth it when Princess is here but I am scared guys. I am really really sounding bipolar right now, but you get me? So, I would like a word that signifies the painful looking forward to an undesirable but awesome inevitability. This isn’t a feeling of fear, just discomfort at knowing that what’s to come will be arduous but beautiful. Omg, I think I have a headache. Words like foreboding, trepidation, apprehension, consternation unease could work but they carry more negative anticipation than painful anticipation. I want to cry.
Water birth would be awesome in this heat. (Mental note: Ice chips during labor.) Do they even do those in this third world country of mine? I doubt it, that is usually for home birth which is not allowed in this country. I am tired of being asked if the baby has arrived! No, she is still enjoying the aquatic pleasures of my uterus. While I am enjoying my last days with a lot of rest and the kicks of this one. I am telling you, this one is going to be a soccer player.
So just you know, three toilet trips were made during this blog. My life basically. Now let me go back to my nap.